Not Bad For A Middle-Aged Bucket Lister
Wednesday, September 20, 2017
So here we are, one
week out from Jump Start. This week started out tough for me. It was hard to
get motivated knowing that I might not get to compete at Jump Start. I had to
force myself to ride. You never know. It might still work out. My
Tuesday lesson was cancelled due to storms but I managed to squeeze in a ride
here at the farm before it hit. Lightening bolts were dropping nearby and the
winds were crazy. Before taking a page from the Wizard of Oz, I
called it quits. I received a call late on Wednesday, that I could have a last
minute lesson with Erika at a nearby farm. I didn’t want to go. My back was
still aching from Saturday and again, the wind had left my sails. A friend sent
me a cute message followed up with a bit about how she was living vicariously
through me and how awesome it had been to watch me over the past few weeks. Arg.
It’s so hot. I’m tired. I don’t want to catch, clean, load, haul, RIDE…I
just laid there on the couch looking for any excuse. You’ve come this
far. GO! I pulled myself up and reached for my riding pants. My
granddaughter took notice and said, “Mimi ride the horse?” Yes, Mimi is
going to ride the damn horse.
The sun was setting
once I arrived at the farm. To say we were spot on would have been an
understatement. I was in control, counting, sitting back, looking up, leg on.
Romeo wasn’t thinking twice about anything. He was game on too. Erika was
super happy. She was talking lots about how far we had come and how Romeo had
forgiven my past mistakes. I was beginning to enjoy myself a bit when she then
set up an oxer. For those that don’t know, an oxer is basically a vertical with
a back rail - so the jump has width to it, not just height.
Erika: Next time
through, canter into this one.
Me: Both of them?
Erika (giggling):
Yes. Both of them.
It looked
intimidating. I immediately became nervous. “You’ve jumped bigger,” she said. Fine.
As I approached the jump, too many thoughts went through my head: Damn,
that looks big. It’s getting dark, can he see it? I don’t wanna…. Romeo
saw the opportunity and stopped. And granted, I gave him every reason to. I
will take 99% of the blame for that one, but for Pete’s sake would it
kill you to take one for the team every now and then!?! The next
hundred times over, we were successful but that nagging feeling was back. If
all systems are not a go on my end, he won’t go. I flashed back to all of the
times we “coached” Emily from the sidelines. “Don’t let him get away with it!”
I understand now.
Erika had set up
some colorful panels that I had ignored throughout the lesson. Tensions increased
every time I circled past one. I knew what was coming next.
Erika: Well, are you ready to call it a day?
Me: You aren’t going
to ask me to do one of those? Eyeing the terrifying panels?
Erika: I need
smiling Julie to do those. You aren’t smiling today.
Kudos for her for
not pushing with what undoubtly would have ended in more rattled
confidence. We finished up with a bit of flat work and headed home. I’m
pretty certain I was in bed by 9, replaying everything I had done wrong in the
lesson. One step forward. Two steps back.
I awoke the next
morning with a new attitude and confidence. And, for the first time in
weeks, my back didn’t ache!
I texted Erika:
Smiling Julie is back.
Heels down, eyes up, leg on.
9 days to Jumps Start
or
16 days to Windridge
Friday, September 22, 2017
The sun rose on this
morning with me trying to find my horse (I mistook him for a cow), and we
headed to a nearby farm with a lesson from Grand Prix dressage rider, Jim
Koford. Did I really need to spend the money on a “Jim” lesson? Probably not,
but I have watched Em do it for years. Again, I have sat on the sidelines and
listened, taken video and learned. I want the entire experience! We
exchanged niceties and I showed him my test from the weekend schooling show.
Me: I’m not too
concerned about bend and connection. All of that stuff is a bit over my head.
We only have one week. I’ll take remembering the test and accuracy.
The next 45 minutes
were spent working primarily on bend and connection! Note to self about Jim the
trainer…he’s gonna teach whatever he wants to teach. Other than not
recognizing one of my circles, “What was that? Is that some move in your test?,”
I think he was impressed. Not bad for a middle-aged, bucket lister who
has never ridden dressage! I learned loads and am quite
confident I will forget to apply all of it in the show but I’m thrilled I took
the lesson and even more so that I didn’t make a complete fool of myself!
On the way to my
massage, the radiator blew up in the jeep and left me stranded on the roadside.
On the ride home with my knight in shining armor:
Richard: Why do you
keep smiling?
Me: Because I’m
happy.
As of 4:30pm, I have
moved up to 4th place on the wait list for Jump Start.
Just saying that makes my heart race. What if it doesn’t happen? I'll
be so bummed. But then again, what if it does? Other than walking
to the mailbox and putting the entry in the mail a few days earlier than I did,
I have done all I can do. Romeo starts on ulcer meds in a few days to counter
any chance of belly stress and colic, the farrier came today - 2 weeks early to
make sure his feet are good, Romeo is sporting some fancy socks to help lower
any chance of bacteria causing a cellulitis flare-up, and I have ridden my ass
off.
While cleaning out
my car today, I found my old to-do list; the one I mentioned in my first
post. I laughed because it has been trampled and tossed aside. I glanced
at it; pull weeds, hang pics in Em’s room, paint pool furniture, develop
pictures. All of this has been forgotten. For one month, I have
concentrated on me…something outside of my comfort zone…something to be proud
of. Whether it be Jump Start or Windridge, it’s almost here and I am
ready.
Not bad for a
middle-aged bucket lister.
Heels down, eyes up,
leg on.
7 days to Jump Start
or
14 days to Windridge.
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